Of course at precisely the wrong time I have a variety of things I want to say. Perhaps for a change I should just say them?

First of all the reason to write a multi-perspective story with lots of characters is because when you get bored or frustrated writing a particular character, generally the demonic male protagonist who seemed like such a good idea at the time, you can distract yourself for a little while writing about another character, like the mousy woman who just happened to get caught up in things that’s just like you when you were young who is only supposed to be a side character but somehow ends up in half the book. eh hem let me advise you again that if you try to write a character greater than yourself, or simply events greater than those you’ve experienced, it’s just going to come out very false and convoluted. Whether or not anyone likes that or not I can’t say though.

Other than that let me say something about knowledge and anxiety. What people worry about, why they worry, and how much they worry is a broad subject. But I can say with no doubt that the more things a person knows about, the more potential things there are to worry about. That just makes sense right? It should almost go without saying, but when you really think about it a lot of things make sense. The truth is that just because you don’t know about something doesn’t mean that it can’t hurt you. It just means that you can’t hurt yourself with worry about it, that’s it. So for example, traces of pharmaceutical drugs in your drinking water, things in food that probably cause cancer, signals emitted from your cards, holes in the ozone layer, meteors shooting towards the earth, treatments to furniture that probably cause birth defects simply by sitting on them, ghosts, curses, Ley lines (and points), the 10 commandments… There are all these things out there you really don’t know about that are constantly doing you harm, perhaps immense and unrepairable. If you know about them, you have the opportunity to try and do something about them. But all that most people end out doing is worrying about them, creating anxiety. After all, if there are all these things you didn’t know about messing you up, then how many other things out there might be messing you up that you had no idea about?

It can be pretty stressful to think about really. Even someone like me, who has been through a lot, looks around and can only think that there’s no way out anymore. Every glimmer of hope starts to look false when you realize that in order to clean one thing you have to soil another. I don’t actually have any advice about this one, it’s just something I was thinking about. Probably all you can do is try not to worry and just do your best to go about your life the way you wish to, even though all attempts to do so will eventually prove futile. Ah can you tell that I’m a person who has no hope? I think that’s easier though, more depressing, but easier.

Fortunately living is a temporary state right? Probably there are just other problems to be encountered when you are not living, like no longer existing at all, but that’s then and this is now. Since we could all die at any time my advice is to have as much sex as you want, as responsibly or not as you wish, and to consume as much of anything (food, entertainment, knowledge) as you wish. Just remember that the more you know the more miserable you’ll become, and the less you know the less you’ll be capable of.

But take some solace that we humans had a pretty good run. Whether it’s been millions or just thousands of years I don’t know for sure, but it’s been pretty good. I do say this though, if you have the chance to uncover that which lies below the water or the crust of the earth then do so. We humans might as well do our best to conquer the earth before it’s all destroyed. It should take less time than conquering the whole of space at least don’t you think?