I get the impression that I’ve said this before but fewer people read these kinds of posts when I make them than have passed down my street in the time it took me to navigate to this point on wordpress.

It doesn’t matter what age you are, it doesn’t matter what you have and haven’t done or been through in your life. There will be times when you simultaneously hurt yourself and others with words becuase you just absolutely feel like you needed to say something. Maybe you were looking for “the truth”, maybe you were trying to explain it as you see it, maybe you just like to ruin your own happiness?

Whatever the case these stupid events are going to happen in your life and they will likely crop up when you least expect them to, and when they are seemingly the least fortuitous. I want to tell you not to anticipate these events with dread but I’m doing all I can at the moment to keep things in perspective after having just gone through one for the who-knows-what time in my life.

So the only thing I can share with you is my philosophy that regardless of the consequences of your choices, as long as you can look back on it later and realize that you’ve learned something and changed even the slightest bit, then you weren’t totally mistaken. I recognize well that this is self-justification, but doesn’t everybody need some of that at times?

Again speaking from a philosophical point of view, those that live in the moment are generally able to be happier at any given moment,  but those who take a longer view of life tend to be more successful and stable. You need to try and find your own balance in life but my point is that it’s OK to become consumed in what you feel like is your own absolutely failure for a while. But you shouldn’t just throw the event away, some day you should take the chance to look back on it so you can try to avoid making the same exact mistakes over and over again.

I’d like to leave you with a message of hope that everything always works out. I really do  believe that. But the flip side is that you don’t always get to choose what the outcome will be even if you play a part in shaping it. For some people that’s the greatest source of despair and I’ve been known to get pretty bleak about it myself. But I want you to pause for a second and try to think about the ways in which our world is all the more beautiful because it’s this way. I should get you all started but I am going to crap out for today because I am tired, weary, and downcast. I want to relish my own moment of misery for now before I have to get back to business as usual later. I was going to say that I’d enjoy receiving such comments but the bright side about the utter lack of commenting I get is that I don’t have negativity heaped on me either. And today I’d rather be a blissfully ignorant bad writer than the best writer in the world who hears even one dissenting voice.